But God: The Testimony I Never Thought I’d Live to Tell

The God Who Carried Me Through What I Thought Would Break Me

Biblically Referenced: Psalm 34:18 • Isaiah 43:2 • Romans 8:28 • Psalm 139:14 • Ephesians 2:10 • John 10:10

There are chapters of life you never imagine you’ll survive.  

Not because you’re weak — but because the pain feels too heavy, the shame too loud, the rejection too personal, and the losses too deep to breathe through.

I’ve lived those chapters.

I’ve walked through seasons where I whispered, “God, I don’t think I’m going to make it through this one.”

But I did.  

And the only reason I did is because He is the God of the impossible.

 

 I Never Thought I’d Survive the Grief of Loss

Loss has a way of hollowing you out.  

It steals your breath, your rhythm, your sense of normal.  

It leaves you wondering if joy will ever feel real again.

But Scripture says:

Psalm 34:18

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

I didn’t feel strong.  

I didn’t feel brave.  

I didn’t feel healed.

But God stayed close — closer than the pain, closer than the memories, closer than the ache.  

And somehow, breath by breath, He carried me.

 

I Never Thought I’d Survive the Shame of Infidelity and Not Being Chosen

There’s a unique kind of wound that comes from betrayal — the kind that whispers, “You weren’t enough.”

But God never agreed with that lie.

Isaiah 43:4

“You are precious and honored in my sight… and I love you.”

When someone else didn’t choose me, God reminded me that He already had.  

Before the betrayal.  

Before the heartbreak.  

Before the shame tried to bury me.

He chose me — fully, intentionally, eternally.

 

I Never Thought I’d Survive the Rejection at Work

Being overlooked hurts.  

Being passed over when you’ve given your all can shake your confidence and your identity.

But God whispered:

Romans 8:28

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him…”

What felt like rejection was actually redirection.  

What felt like a closed door was God protecting me from a room I didn’t belong in.  

He was preparing something better — something aligned with purpose, not just position.

I Never Thought I’d Survive Not Being Chosen by Friends or Community

There’s a sting that comes from feeling uninvited, unseen, or unworthy of belonging.

But God reminded me:

Psalm 139:14

“I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”

People may overlook you.  

People may misunderstand you.  

People may fail to see your value.

But God never does.

He handcrafted you with intention.  

He assigned you identity before anyone else had an opinion.

 

I Never Thought I’d Learn to Love Simple, Imperfect Me

Healing didn’t happen overnight.  

Finding my voice didn’t happen in a single moment.  

Learning to love myself — the real me, the imperfect me — took time.

But God was patient.

Ephesians 2:10

“For we are God’s masterpiece…”

Not flawless.  

Not finished.  

But a masterpiece in progress — shaped by the hands of a perfect God.

But God…

When I thought the story was over,  

He rewrote it.

When I thought I was too broken,  

He restored me.

When I thought I had no purpose left,  

He breathed life into me again.

John 10:10

“I have come that they may have life, and have it more abundantly.”

He took every wound, every disappointment, every heartbreak, every rejection —  

and turned it into purpose.

He reminded me that the enemy cannot defeat the God who lives in me.  

He reminded me that my story is not defined by who didn’t choose me, what I lost, or where I was overlooked.

My story is defined by Him.

 

Final Declaration

I will live.  

I will rise.  

I will walk in purpose.  

I will stand in the identity God gave me.  

I will wake up each day knowing the breath in my lungs is proof that God is not finished with me.

And I will remind the enemy — boldly, confidently, unshakably:

You cannot defeat the God in me.  

I will live, in Jesus’ name.